Say HELLO to GOODBYE

Tik TOk.. clock ticking

Time Flies ! Time Flies !

White Season is Calling.. and Jubilant Bell Ringing

This is a significant year for me in life

Finally I went to UK

Not least.. I went to Italy too

I LOVE PARIS

I LOVE Florence

I LOVE Venice

I LOVE SWITZERLAND

I LOVE NEWCASTLE

and etc

and I LOVE SHEFFIELD !!

Well..

All being memories

Photo could help me recall back that particular moment

No matter how bitter and sweet it was

That make my memories complete

No Doubt

If Sad doesnt exist how are we feel of Joy

Heheee

A new year come..

A new life begin..

A new story to tell..

A new people to meet..

A new way to live..

A new spark to fly. .

Lets have fun at the white season holiday !!

Before a brand new life to come..

Cheers

The End

This is the last four days I'll be in Sheffield..
I gonna leave this UK life very soon..
I dont feel like to leave..
But I'm lookin forward the Europe trip..
Which after couple of days..

What is the life will be when i'm traveling for
Three weeks.. its just three weeks..
What gonna happen?
I've no idea at all..
But I hope that i'll be a fantastic trip..
That I pray for everyday..

I came UK with the dream of visit to europe countries..
But now I'm not expecting at all..
That pathetics..
Anway I will cheers my life..
No more study after all wahaha..

What happen next?

Moment of Peace

It have been a longtime I being EMO..

I keep on sighed.. I knw that no good..

But i just cant control myself to keep on doin that !!

Now its the day I really let go everything..

As my UK journey will end soon..

In few days.. around 6 days

I really dont feel like to leave this peaceful city..

Its a lovely city..

Time is the magical medicine ever in the world..

It cure my sadness and disappointment..

Thanks for time flies yet it flies really quickly..

I still can remembered the first day I reached UK..

The weather do killed me really..

But now the hot weather really killing me badly..

From 10 of June till 10 Of Sept..

Its gimie a lot of fun and sorrow..

But this make my life even fantastic or not easy perhaps..

I learn alot throughout these months

Thing is not always in our favorable way..

Promise is just simply words when things go adverse..

And I'm not that tough as I thought..

Someone can really hurt me badly cuz I'm care than everyone else..

I appreciate who really meant to me.. But they dont even can feel that..

Anyway we do what we think is correct.. if you dont understand then

You are really not understanding me at all..

Cuz I still mine.. No changed

Yeah.. my UK memories will end with good and bad..

Thats life..is'nt it?

The unhappy time make me more appreciate what joy I got..

I'm not got nothing left..

I know that I got more than what I lost..

Cheers

Its the time

Sometimes we do need some times to adapt ourselves,

Nothing could hurt u unless u don't let go !

Yea time can heal everything..

And writing can heal urs heart..

Feeling betta as i cant even talk to anyone..

This is the place where i goin to begin..

Express the feeling in the world of words..

That is the best choice ever..

Yea i'm findin a way out~

When u reading this~

I'm fine no worry

Just sometimes I'm not that tough as I think..

Maybe that is too heavy to bear by my heart..

Let it exuding

I'm depressed just because I cant get through

I said its alright

But seem that alright make me feel not alright

I'm smiling

Just because I'm so stupid

Like to thinking so much~

Is the weaknesses of mine ever

I'm just because of one sentences

I'm completely collapse

I'm being shattering

I want draw a line..

I wish i could..

I hope you known me

If u dont then i got nothing to said

Let all these matter fade away in somewhere..

I gonna to alive again !!

Cheers

What goin on? IDK

hmm today what goin on?

I seriously have no idea..

my heart was pain...

what make me feel in that way?

idk

it make me loss concentration throughout the day..

when i come to uk.. something changed

i dun like that much but i have to accept it..

in order not to make me feel bad sometimes...

reality always cruel.. yea its just cruel..

when u really care on someone and the ignorance will just like..

urs heart being punched.. its painful..

i cant bear this anymore..

my heart was fragile as i thought..

the heart beat make me feel the pain..

yeah i gonna have a good sleep tonight..

not to think and not to face someone..

sweet dream.. alvin..cheers

When..

When everything gone clear..

That relief make my heart be light than previously..

Today was a great day..

Movie, Shoppin, Starbucks

That all were my favorites activity..

I enjoyed my life~

________________________________________

And..

When reveal some truth that u try to conceal so long ago..

Its was just nice to me..

I hope that it will knw wat exactly I'm thinking..

It must not 100 percent but 70 percent will just fine..

I cant told all the truth but at least I've try to express my thought..

That drive my emotional alot..

I convinced myself not to think thing inside the box..

Perhaps tolerance will solve all the things..

I should learn it well enough !!!

You will never knw all I ever wanted..

Cuz u already got wat u really wanted..

Anyway I run my life.. not you or someone else..

Stay strong and I'm alive !!

.....

Hmm... I've been here a month..

I enjoyed the two weeks summer days that really make me sweating..

The weather is turning cold and colder..

And the wind gettin strong and stronger..

I movin to another room today..

But I need to spend some time to suit myself into new room..

Just because of the view different and the color of the floor different..

I would prefer red color than a blue one..

For the past few days, I was so emo..

All thing seem like against me at the same moment..

The person that so close to me but I'd feel it stand far away from me..

I always easy to get mad or lose out myself..

I try to pursue myself not to act in that way..

But I guess mad is over my rationale..

I told not to doin but I'm doin in that way..

All people scared of me when I'm turnin emo without smile and talking..

Anyway I need some private time to calm down with some musics..

Sit alone and think alone.. that might help me alot..

I'm so upset enough or little bit depressed..

I must re-built my thinking and accept the reality..

What u really want is not gonna happen..

Disappointing bury me.. deeper and deeper

I was tryin to make walk out from it..

I try and try.. Its time to let go..

Second day in Sheffield

Its COOL COOL COOL and COOL..

The weather is so cool here.. now is only 10 Celsius..

Every time the breeze blows.. it just like the air con stroking my face ..

Hmm sometimes I will just suddenly shuddering on the street..

Its hard for me to sweating like in Malaysia..

The people here like to walk and bask in the sunshine when sunny day..

I love the SUN when I stay here for just two days..

Sunny day is the best gift for yours day..

It make me feel warm and great..

I realized why western people like to lay down on the lawn..

It feel so nice.. seriously.. the grass is soft enough whilst the sun is warm enough too..

The lifestyle of people in Sheffield is so relaxing..

Almost all the shop will close at 5pm..

The street will be empty like a city empty with people..

The sunshine is still very strong at 6pm..

Well in afternoon, stream of people will crowded in central park or square..

There are some street performances every where in the street...

And the drivers in UK are well courtesy..

They will let the passenger cross over the street..

That u will never deserved this privilege in Malaysia..

So far, I love UK so much..

I lookin forward for every single day coz here is new to me..

TBC..

10 June 2010

Today is 10th of JUNE..

I gonna have my ever first time flight experience..

On the Emirates plane..

Seriously I don't even have any excitement at right moment..

I'm those kind of people that will not home sick so often..

But HOME is always the best place for me.. a shield for me..

Whatever the worst come to me.. my home is always thr..

The Door will never ever closed..

Few days ago, I leave my hometown towards to KL early in the morning..

The scene is still fresh in my mind..

Its 4am.. tik tok tik tok..

I woke up and gearing up myself and someone who woke up too..

Guess who?

Its my dad !!

He was woke up so early..

I think he cant even sleep well cuz his son gonna leave home for the coming 5 months..

He probably will miss his son.. yeah that is me..

He didnt talk much but from his eyes..

I can see he is worry and unwilling..

At first, my parent decided not to farewell with me at KLIA

But the moment, I heard what he said:

"Son, if I free I think i'll go to find u and bring u to airport.. erm i think i'll free..''

Oh my.. its touch me.. I didnt deny cuz i know he would like to do it..

And after that I leave my home.. I'm emo at that moment..

When I reached Kl..

My mummy called me..

She was the great mother and a tough one..

She said if we are not goin to farewell with u is that ok?

Do u mind?

Of course I said its OK.. be frankly I'm really ok with that..

I dont want them to come over just to see me leave and its tired..

They need to drive all the way from my hometown and go back afterward..

So I answered.. Its good if you all come to pick me up when I come back Msia on Nov..

So my parents decided not to farewell wit me..

I gonna do it All By Myself !!

No worry my love dad and mom..

U should be proud cuz yours son was Independent..

And no need to worry cuz it seems longtime I didnt let you all worry..

I'm grow up and nothing can separate us.. but distances

We still can keep in touch with hp or even internet..

I gonna be fine and will enjoy the moment in uk..

I love you all cuz u provided me the opportunity to have my degree in uk..

Which is the most expensive place in the world..

I promise will make a call to u so often when I visit any places or every moment I miss u all..

I hope u all healthy while I'm not here around..

The greatest words that I never been say to them face to face..

It is I LOVE U mom and dad..

I should hug u whn i leave my hometown but I dint..

But the feeling is real.. just feel it..

Take care and goodbye

Ciao.

MY LOVE

Every time i listen to this song..

those emotional whimming from somewhere..

i love this song cuz it reveal some points..

the lyrics here we go..

My love, we have seen it all

The endless confession, rise and fall

As fragile as a child

But lately I'm sorry I can't hold a smile

(I like this chorus, its meaningful)

But I stand tall to get by

No matter how hard I try to hide

How did you know I'd take the time for you?

Did you know that I could see you through?

How did you know that I would play the part

I must've made it clear right from the start

(how did u knw i take time for u and did u knw i can see u through...)

(perhaps that he or she is not noticed.. )

My love can you give me strength?

Some how I forgot how to ease my pain

I know I'm right where I belong

But Somethin for nothin never proved me wrong

I would share my whole life with you

Would you do the same for me?

I would give all I am to you

Would you do the same for me?

And I will stand tall to get by

No matter how hard I try to hide

You could you see? I could break

Did you notice all my mistakes?

There were times that I felt you read my mind

How did you know I'd take the time for you?

And did you know that I could see you through?

Did you know that I would play that part??

I know I made it clear right from the start....

anyway i like the lyrics and this song..

it touch me mostly whn i listened to it..

celine dion sing this song perfectly..

she sing this live..here is the link

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GHeImfKrDbY

Its Nothing

Nothing special for the last few month,

Except i need to resit for one paper,

That significantly affect my future..

And absolutely, now I enjoy my holiday.. hooray

Eating, Fb-ING, Watch drama blah blah blah..

Do whatsoever I like,

Meet whosoever I like,

Thats Great.

Life is good.. at this moment.

Nothing to worry about.. but afraid of become fat..

that probably will kill me badly..lol

Sometimes I'm thinking

Are we hold our destiny,

Or God make for us..?

That doesnt matter for me..

At least I've try my best, done what i think that could be right..

Success or failure.. That out of control

Enjoy my life and keep moving..moving up

Miracle do happens.. take a breath and wait..

UK I'm COMIN~!! yuhooh cheers

Time Flies ! Time Flies !

I just finished my advanced diploma..

For the time frame of 4 years..

Next goal is goin to UK havin my Degree..

I feel excited when think bout the UK journey..

I need to thanks my parent..

Who is the BIG sponsor !!

That support my financial..

Thanks

Recently, I havin a long holiday..

Probably a vacation..

Looking forward to the TIGER year..

AND ANG POW ANG POW

I want you. Nobody But You..

When I am hometown..

The life is miserable..

No shopping

No starbucks

No movies

No frens

SIghed..

But must try to be a filial son..

SIT at home and let my parent see me..

Cuz they seldom to see me..

Sometime feel like a VASE..

Let them saw me often before I go UK..

hehehe.. they gonna miss me